So about 2 months ago I broke my streak of making at least one post every month for the past 10 years, and apparently that was the small push needed, the unaccounted anomaly required to cause the cogs of destruction to engage and begin their slow but deadly rotation in transmitting this world to its demise. 

See, this is what happens when you don't give the glue that holds together the shoddy makeshift raft made of thread called xanga the appreciation that it deserves, THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS!!! Now the end of the world is upon us! THIS IS WHAT THE MAYANS MEANT WHEN THEY SAID 2013 WOULD BE THE END OF THE WORLD. PRAY! PRAY TO YOUR PAGAN GODS, YOU FOOLISH MORTALS!

I was but the messenger, unknown to the role that I would play in the larger picture... Very much surprised by what occurred... 

Anyway, I jest.

If it wasn't already apparent, it seems like this site is on the brink of shutting down. Which, while some might point out is certainly saddening as a large chuck of our lives is written down and recorded on here, I would say it is also not surprising.... The website itself just had no clue what in the hell it was doing, trying to specialize in multiple different 'niche' markets that ultimately caused this entire space to look like a Frankenstein of the sorts, some sort of creation that looked like every body part came from something else and didn't belong where it was currently situated,,,

There was never a 'community' in xanga, just a cluster of small nests that never operated in tandem with one another, and when one got too big, it was brought down, attention was diverted away as to not upset the others and make them feel as if the smaller groups were being forgotten. This constant rebalancing that was being done by the invisible hand is ultimately what killed off the most prominent and attractive things about this site that brought people here in droves... This constant focus and obsession to create, design, and please all the different types of people was just a losing strategy to begin with....

A mission with noble objectives, much like Columbus and his desire to innovate, except this isn't Columbus... Instead of a small fleet of 3 ships, this site had something great going for it and, going back to my previous analogy, decided to tear it apart and rebuild it into something worse, a raft made from random garbage found in a junk yard, kept together with rubber bands and human hair, pushing away every person that liked what it was before, and only keeping veterans that remained pathetically loyal, holding onto the shred of hope that things would return to the way they were, grasping out at the wonderful memories made but only, always finding empty hands.

I will certainly miss it if this site is gone. It would be a lie for me to say otherwise, I did a lot of growing up over the last 10 years and recorded a lot of it on this blog, if not concrete events, at the very least 'checkpoints' for myself to remind myself of where I was and what I was doing during that moment in time, but things like time are irreversible, and there is no going back so looking at the past will only bring pain.

I'm not nearly as active as I used to be, most of the friends I made on here have left years ago and gone on to other things whether it be online or off. The site itself might be gone, along with everything that was ever written, recorded, and shared, but the memories... Ah yes, those wonderful memories much like the nightmares of life will stay with me, and the rest of you, for the rest of our lives, like brutal scars that may fade a bit over time but still remain. EVERLASTING!

So that ends my gay spiel about the death of Xanga. Regardless of whether or not the site stays online, I'm glad I met most of you, and I had a great time. I have made good friends and met the woman I'm currently in a lovely relationship with thanks to this site.

This isn't the first time that an online community that I participated in has shut down leaving all of the inhabitants to fend for themselves, ultimately moving onto other places, places more suited for their personal tastes. Don't worry, life goes on and things always get better before they get worse, and they also get much, much, much worse before they get better

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